Repentance ======== * I am Marfat, a girl whose eyes are narrow and whose eyelashes are long and the shape of a dairy branch. In the first year of secondary school. Her first relationship was with Youssef, and their relationship developed after entering university. Feelings of love and passion connected us, and we pledged to marry. But the winds come with what the ships do not desire. She married one of her relatives, an engineer. The honeymoon ended and he went abroad to work. He refused to let me go out to work, so I stayed in my apartment. One month passed after another, and she began to feel hopeful about her husband's absence. I met my beautiful neighbor, Rahma, who is five years older than me and has two young children. I considered them like my children. Our relationship deepened until they became part of my tricks. I was aware of the depth of my neighbor’s husband’s looks at me, which penetrated all parts of my body, so I ignored him and sometimes I deliberately sat in a way that would tempt him without making him feel that I was wanted. One afternoon, I was washing my clothes, and the washing machine broke down, so I said I would go to my neighbor and ask her about her husband, Nour. He is the owner of an electrical appliances showroom, so he could point me to someone who would fix the washing machine. She told me that she would send him to her immediately after he came to have lunch. He actually knocked on my door, and I was just wearing a robe. He asked me about my washing machine, so I let him in. While I make him something to drink. Suddenly I turned around to find him examining my body with obvious passion!! I froze in place and a smile crossed my lips in embarrassment. I found him harassing me and whispering, “Please don’t get angry if I say that you are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen in my life.” I couldn't wait to open my lips to find him approaching me and whispering: - For a long time, I have been hoping for myself and enjoying your closeness. I did not realize myself until we fell into the forbidden.!! My husband used to visit me every six months for a month, and I did not feel the taste of life with him as I felt it with Nour.. After a period of time, I wondered whether livelihood was a tax that we pay so that we would be estranged from our country and our souls!! Many stories like this happen to others. But I woke up from my negligence and came back to my senses, asking my Lord for forgiveness. Patient, Muhtasib, waiting for my husband. This is how my story ended... It took place on 5/7/2023 ================ Written by the writer/ Hassan Abdel Moneim Rifai
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* أنا مرفت فتاه عيونها كحيلة ورموشها طويلة قوامها كغصن البان. بالصف الأول الثانوي. كانت علاقتها الأولى مع يوسف وتطورت علاقاتهما بعد دخول الجامعة. ربطت بيننا مشاعر الحب والعشق وتعاهدنا على الزواج. لكن تأتي الرياح بما لا تشتهي السفن. تزوجت من أحد أقاربها مهندسا. انتهى شهر العسل وسافر للعمل بالخارج. و قد رفض خروجي للعمل فلزمت شقتي . مر شهر تلوا الأخر وبدأت أمل من غياب زوجها. تعرفت على جارتي الجميلة رحمة التي تكبرني بخمس سنوات ولديها طفلان بعمر الزهور. فكنت أعتبرهم كأطفالي. توطدت علاقتنا حتى صارا جزء من حيلي. كنت أعي مدى عمق نظرات زوج جارتي لي .. التي كانت تخترق أجزاء جسدي كله فكنت أتجاهله وأحياناً كنت أتعمد أن اجلس بصورة تغريه لا شعر أنى مرغوبة
. ذات ظهيرة كنت أغسل ثيابي فتعطلت الغسالة فقلت أذهب لجارتي وسألتها عن زوجها نور فهو صاحب معرض أدوات كهربائية ليدلني على من يصلح الغسالة فأخبرتني أنها ستبعثه لها حالاً بعد أن يأتي ليتناول الغذاء. بالفعل طرق بابي وكنت بالروب فقط وسألني عن غسالتي فأدخلته. فيما أنا أصنع له ما يشربه. إذ التفت فجأة لأجده يتفحص جسدي بشغف واضح!! تجمدت في مكاني وطفرت بسمة فوق شفتي فى خجل . لأجده يتحرش بي ويهمس قائلا:- أرجوكي لا تغضبى لو قلت أنك اجمل ست رايتها في حياتي. لم أكد أفتح شفتي لأجده يدنو مني ويهمس:- من زمان وانا امنى نفسي واحظى بقربك لم الفق لى نفسى إلا وقد وقعنا في المحظور .!! وكان زوجي يوافيني كل ستة شهور شهر فلا أحس بطعم الحياة معه كما احس بها مع نور .. تساءلت بعد فترة من الزمن هل للقمة العيش ضريبة ندفعها فنتغرب عن بلادنا وأرواحنا !!
وقصص كثيرة أمثالها تحدث لغيرى . ولكنى انتبهت من غفلتي ورجعت لرشدي مستغفره ربى . صابرة محتسبة منتظرة زوجي هكذا انتهت قصتي ...
تمت في /5/7/2023
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بقلم الاديب/ حسـن عبـد المنعم رفاعي
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